Seasons for the Wise Ones

Just now was probably the best moment of my life. I was going through some things in my room and happened to stumble across three diaries that I had from middle school. As I read through all three, my mind was flooded by those very distant memories. I called the girl that had been my best friend all through out grammar school and told her of my discovery. We laughed and talked for about thirty minutes all about the people that knew back then. It was very "where are they now." It's so funny, especially in grammar school, to expect that you will always have the same friends and always be the same person. I have changed so much from that time and I haven't seen most of those people in five years. And then there was this boy. HE WAS IN ALL THREE OF MY DIARIES!! Apparently, I liked him a whole lot. I have never seen so many hearts around one guy's name in life. This theme seems constant: when i fall, i fall hard. This is very apparent.
I've learned something very important today: Things, people, and circumstances change. I know that's pretty obvious, but until today it never really clicked in my mind how important this lesson is. For example, I have never given any thought to the boy who I wanted so desperately to notice me in grammar school. The scandals and rumors have been forgotten. People have moved on. I have moved on.
So here's where we apply a twelve year-old's life to now. Moving on is difficult, but it is something that I need to do. I need to realize in the great scheme of things that he is very insignificant to the entire universe. He should not stop my world from turning or my sun from rising. Whatever will come from this situation will come but in time. In five years, I may not give him a second thought. What's important to me now will definitely change. Not knowing what the future holds is a little scary, but I'm prepared to roll with the punches and to keep on living.
This little nugget of wisdom is also teaching me to live in the now. Don't worry about things that have already happened. There is no way to change the past. Regret is just extra baggage. Guess what, the plane is very full, so throw that shit off! And don't worry about people and relationships changing. Change is inevitable and the one thing that you can depend on.
...and the music played on.